Almost one week and it seems like things have turned around..why you might ask? Its all because God is in control and I have finally turned the situation with my mom over to God and if we are meant to have a normal relationship then God will let it be and if not then Ill learn to accept that. Its a tough situation for sure to deal with especially when you are talking about your own mother but I know God has his hand on the situation. I just feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can live and survive now without the emotional rollercoaster.

I have also finally turned over our situation to God with having a baby and trust me I still have days I want to take that control back. We are humans and want to have full control over everything we do but we must let God be in the drivers seat. I dont know what road God will take us down to have a child but whatever road it might be I know it will be wonderful.

I have been emailing lots of CA people that have used the ministry and Im just in awe of the women and what a bunch of prayer warriors they are. Women & men sharing their journey to a child, sending verses and again and again I keep getting told "just let god take over the reigns and he will do the rest".

Im human you are human and we all want that full control but after reading story and story over and over God has really laid it on my heart to let that control lie with him and not with us. Tough tough thing but I know God will bring us through this with marvelous things!

Great reminder on the verse today.. we are all his children and hopefully one day we will inherit that beautiful blessing as well:)
Matthew 19:14
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven."

Matthew 19:26..great verse to remember we are not in control...
26But Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."