This week has taken forever and then it seems like the days are getting longer and longer for the wait. The long wait to either see a BFN or BFP, what does God have in store for us? To either be parents or wait and yet another month go by waiting for Gods perfect plan for us to see when we will be parents, hopefully sooner rather than later. I know God has a perfect plan for us though no matter how long the wait maybe.

The nurse told me last week that if I dont get AF by May 19 to test to see if I get a BFP or BFN. May 19 would be CD 29 but not sure how many DPO due to my screwed up fertility monitor. I know I at least O but CD 19 which would be 10 DPO at the latest but could have been earlier too. The only reason I know this is because all my hot flashes I noticed were gone by CD 19 which is a definite giveaway that I O.

Of course I must admit I am absolutely terrified to test just to see the same thing Ive always seen BFN. Maybe I will see something differently but when you have seen a BFN so many times it seems as though you get used to the results and think you will always see the same thing.

For the pain in the left side-the only thing I can come up with is implamantation. Not sure if thats what it is but it sure was painful!

A great verse I found today and it helps to know that our plans even though its what we want, its not always what God has in store for us. How perfect of a verse is this?

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Thanks to so many of you that have stopped by, I hope this is a short journey but also feel like it will be a long battle but hopefully we will get our miracle soon!

Today is a day that Ive been dreading for some time, a baby shower for a co-worker. I honestly have resisted going to a baby shower anytime anyone has had one that Ive known. Ive come up with excuses or even sometimes really had stuff to do. Well since its at school (yes Im a teacher!) and I really cant resisit this one.

This girl that is a co-worker when she found out she was pg pretty much said that she couldnt believe that God would give her a kid, she had a long list of why she didnt want a kid and even told all her family that they were not having kids and to deal with it and then she had a baby. How is it that people that want to have a kid sometimes cant have them but yet people like her can, its really not fair at all I think. Its also harder to buy a gift and go to a baby store (such as Babies R us) knowing that you have not been so fortunate and someone who doesnt want a kid can.

IUI-for any of you that have had an IUI have you experienced major bloating, nausea, and diahrea? Just wondering whats up because these three things have been rough. Would love to hear from anyone who has had one and if these are normal or if I need to be concerned.

Also has anybody ever had any problems out of the fertility monitor. We bought one a few months back and never had any problems with it but last month I got all high and then this month has proved to be the same way. At first I didnt think I had O but then I went to test my progesterone and it was 20 so I clearly O.

In other news-I cant believe I only have 10 days left of school I cant believe the school year has gone by so quickly. Now that most of my seniors are gone I only have 2 out of my 6 classes and out of those 2 classes that I have left there will be a ton out today for a field day.