Next Week

This week has taken forever and then it seems like the days are getting longer and longer for the wait. The long wait to either see a BFN or BFP, what does God have in store for us? To either be parents or wait and yet another month go by waiting for Gods perfect plan for us to see when we will be parents, hopefully sooner rather than later. I know God has a perfect plan for us though no matter how long the wait maybe.

The nurse told me last week that if I dont get AF by May 19 to test to see if I get a BFP or BFN. May 19 would be CD 29 but not sure how many DPO due to my screwed up fertility monitor. I know I at least O but CD 19 which would be 10 DPO at the latest but could have been earlier too. The only reason I know this is because all my hot flashes I noticed were gone by CD 19 which is a definite giveaway that I O.

Of course I must admit I am absolutely terrified to test just to see the same thing Ive always seen BFN. Maybe I will see something differently but when you have seen a BFN so many times it seems as though you get used to the results and think you will always see the same thing.

For the pain in the left side-the only thing I can come up with is implamantation. Not sure if thats what it is but it sure was painful!

A great verse I found today and it helps to know that our plans even though its what we want, its not always what God has in store for us. How perfect of a verse is this?

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

4 comments:

Triumph in Learning said...

I can understand about part of you not wanting to test... I too feel the same way about that:(
It just hurts so much to see a BFN.

I'm praying for you sweetie!!

Hugs,
Hannah

ps. I Love that verse it is one of my favorites

Triumph in Learning said...

Hello again.. in answer to your question- I have lived in Lucedale, MS "South MS" for most of my life.

But we are currently living in Petal,Ms in an area that is no more the 5 minutes away from Hattiesburg, MS.

Now you've got me curious.. what part of MS are you from?? :)

Triumph in Learning said...

My clinic is in Mobile, AL. So unfortunately we can't have the same dr:(

I could have also went to Jackson, Ms or New Orleans,Louisiana. But the one in Mobile, AL was the best choice for us. It is almost the same distance from petal, ms to mobile or Jackson. BUT I often still visit with some of my other family members in Lucedale,ms and it is closer to mobile:)

You must be pretty close to your clinic.. if so.. then that is great!

Don't lose hope In finding someone online that uses your clinic and the same Dr. though..... I actully found someone from Flordia that used the same cinic as me and the same Dr and now she is pregnat with a baby girl:) it was very encourging for me to see that.

And I'm really Glad I met you.. it's nice to see someone from my own state for a change..ha

Titi said...

Just came across your site...
Its really good that you put your trust in God. While its hard, its comforting knowing that God will allow this to happen at the perfect time.

I can totally relate on not testing early, i usually wait till AF shows. I tested early my first two cycles and got so depresses that DH made me promise not to buy any HPT!

Continue to put your trust in God hon.